and i think i’m ok with it.
i don’t usually sit down here and think outloud on the computer, but tonight it’s different. there is a hot guy, with whom i’ve had sex, and which it was really good. i may have been drunk, but from what i remember is that he was sweet, interesting, and funny. and cute. and tall. and smelled really fucking good.
but immediately i am hit with the reference to “i maybe have been drunk,” which makes me think the whole thing is negated. what makes this guy any different from any other asshole i’ve dated? …slept with? …met?!
and the idea that someone wants me to be there so badly he’s built up a moment to a fantasy of perfection, is a scary idea. it was a one night stand, or at least that’s what i thought it was going to be. and then i thought those first texts were just a one-off, but we’ve been talking for a few days now.
few=3.5 (consecutive)
talking=texting
maybe i’m overthinking. maybe i’m worrying cause that’s what i do. this is nothing. right?
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